Tuesday, October 23, 2007

Ah, the art of late night procrastinating.

I am not meaning to brag. However, to pull out a van gogh in different colors in four hours the night before its due.

ha, eh....

...i dunno.


just needed to share....!

Sunday, October 21, 2007

uh, shez amazing by the way.........

this is my sister.

she is a rare star that blinds people when shes around them!

http://www.huskers.com/ <---women's volleyball. amazing! uh, were going into business together.

fall 2009.

watch out.

.....hold hands with hot dogs people. its never to late.

Friday, October 19, 2007

i GaTz mY MenTEE !


Well, I just had a long meeting yesterday with Friends For Youth. Its a local mentoring agency that pairs up crazy guys and gals like myself with "at-risk", fatherless/motherless kids. It's a great volunteer program and very similar to Big Brothers/Big Sisters.

I did tons of "mentoring" while I was away in Ireland and even in the hot sun of San Diego. I love it. One on One relationship. ITS so important. Especially in their teens when the rush of puberty comes and direction and questioning life consume the mind.
For those of you who are interested in it! PLEASE email me. ESPECIALLY YOU LADS out there . There is such a shortage of men that will step up to the plate!

To the world you might be one person, but to one person you might be the world."

I am meeting the young man on Sunday and we will embark on our friendship this coming week! I hear the mother is a bit over protective and will be an exciting challenge!

Very excited and I will post once I meet this crazy cat...!

His name is Sebastian!

Hope y'all are welL!


OH, and my impulsive nature is going to be changing majors again this week..so, ill let u know..ha, wow. I can figure a lot of things out, but finishing this whole school thing seems to go against my character.


Monday, October 15, 2007

a word from Saint Augustine...

For one who seeks what he cannot obtain suffers torture,

one who has got what is not desirable is cheated,

and one who does not seek for what is worth seeking for is diseased.

Saint Augustine, Of the Morals of the Catholic Church


I was having a really tough day today...don't know why? I just woke up cranked...frustrated...and not in the mood for what life had.

It got worse and I kept staring down the dark hallway of thought like it was an endless tunnel of uncertainty and unknowns....

Then I started talking to someone in class, someone I had never spoken to.....I began laughing...and making fun of how they communicated...."as those of you that know me"..i tend to enjoy the art of "mocking".....

My entire perspective changed and I'm now bleeding with optimism...

AHHH... life is all perspective people.......we have so much to be happy about...

my advice to those that can relate:-->get over yourself for awhile and focus on how great someone else is....


Saturday, October 13, 2007

exhausted by empty design....can I SCREAM!

Venting, thoughts, and the like....

While currently studying towards a degree in Communication Design, I have made the 5 day/ 48 hour sacrifice to volunteer at the bi-annual AIGA conference. AIGA is the professional association for design that offers professional support for today's top designers. As this has been an incredible opportunity making great contacts and igniting loads of knowledge, it has also been a heavy wake up call in general design character, extreme trendy culture, and artistic ethics.

There have been times during this experience where I have wanted to scream, tear down walls, and rip off hea.....I mean?!

Finding that I get very angry to blatant, crude, and vulgar sexual humor, I told myself to operate with a fresh force field of patience everyday as I learn to interact within this new culture. Constantly listening to heavy criticism, fashion boundaries, and egoistic attitudes; I again tell myself to relax and realize that not everyone in here is like this and that anywhere you go you will find similar energy. Furthermore, I tell myself that people make sense and I am NO better than anyone in this convention center.

Humbled and weak I again embark on a new day and welcome my fellow volunteers and AIGA employees with a smile and fresh attitude.

Command X is the name of the reality show that the conference in putting on. Going along with the idea of "American Idol," they bring seven design students from varying schools to compete against one another until all but one has been eliminated. There highly energized host who is accompanied by four preselected judges. Growing with optimism, I eagarly begin watching this entertaining display of humor, competition, and creation.

If you think about it, it's a great opportunity to go in front of 2,000 of the country's top designers and fight to create, for example the new Denver Broncos Logo.

As the show progressed the judges started making vulgar comments about each other and laughed them off as like it was apart of the show. There were a lot of jokes and puns related to sex, profanity, and the like. I am not a stiff, and I honestly don't mind the occasional "cuss" word in allowing some "exclamation" in my communication. However, abusing that form of communication in such a large audience on top of being a panel of judges who are suppose to be ideal role models for the 600 plus students in the audience seems that it should be unacceptable. It seemed to peak when the jokes started revolving around wanting to hit on or date one of the students. In weak attempts to create crowd giggling, SO much of the original purpose was lost in the immature comments and surface funnies. I felt as if I had purchased a ticket for a live high school drama on MTV. As I started to steam up, I decided to get out of my chair for the "vote" of the winners and losers of the second assignment.

Pancake covered sausages on a stick by Jimmy Dean was the challenge of choice. Funny, creative, and a great idea to keep the crowd engaged with an honest approach in displaying America's strange eating habits. It seemed like something that could be fun and hopefully shift the current energy. The first four examples were very unique and deeply creative and fit the assigned topic. Going with the sexual energy of the crowd, the last contestant chose to have a busty cowgirl riding the pancake covered sausage. Surrounded by sexually twisted text and an attitude of laying it all out there, she sold the crowd. They loved it. Clapping, screaming, hollering, and what seemed to be genuine laughter. Okay, so I smirked and gave credit, if nothing else, to the fact that it was very creative and well designed. However, when it came to choosing the 3 winners out of the five I didn't even give it a chance. Why? Because it was one step from communicating soft porn. It was all about Dalia and her meat stick. Before announcing the winners the judges clearly stated that there decisions were based primarily on there effectiveness in today's grocery stores.

Sure enough the cowgirl was a winner.
The crowd went wild. The judges laughed. The artist was pleased.

I couldn't sit, smile, or think clearly. My face was red. I wanted to hit something. Did I really just see an entire audience and panel of judges come together and choose an ad SO obviously inappropriate for the younger grocery store generation. Did I really see that collectively there was a priority given to the sexual humor over any kind of existing morality.

Ah, I know I have ranted to you people who have read this.

I am not perfect and sure don't have all the answers. I screw up and feel awful about what this crazy culture is doing in my own mind. However, I cannot help but burn, itch, and squirm at the obvious destruction and lack of awareness regarding this issue.

I would love to hear from anyone who has experienced something similar. I felt alone. I felt that I was the only one in that entire theater that could sit and watch what was taking place.

It seems like a simple story......something that any average Joe could just brush by.

I can't.

I feel convicted for just sitting there and watching it.

AHHHH...a;d fjlasjdfkjasl dfjlkas d blah......okay.

Hope you are all doing well! ....and I am doing really well, really!!! ....I just felt the need and desire to share!