Monday, August 26, 2013

Choosing to swim















Ride the wave.
Let things be.
Go with the flow.
See what happens.
It will all work out.

Today its false.
Today the wave is too big.
Today its avoidance.
Today I can't fully breathe.
What happens when I can't see?
What will it look like when its all 'worked out'?

Grab your gut, grow up and be bold to face hard things.

Doubt is finding too much fertile soil.
Tears fill the rims of eyes in hopes of drowning honesty.
Hands grasp tightly in fear of letting go.
Flesh runs for shelter.
Spirit chains itself to patience.
Memories and time wage war.
Expectations, assumptions and judgments fill the front lines.
The medicine man speaks to the ear that will listen.

There's nothing easy about love.
Oh, secrets.
Oh, radiant color.
Groaning.
Longing.
Reaching.

I won't just ride the wave today.
I'd rather swim.

Oh man who loves and gazes at another man
Oh woman who loves and gazes at another woman
Oh woman who loves and gazes at another man
Oh man who loves and gazes at another woman
 
I love you.
I understand you.